MARRIED.
an important thing, really important, or maybe the most important moment for girl for me.
I always wonder, how I feel... When a man choose me, among milion girl, to be his partner in live.
I always wonder, how I feel... When a man say "ijab qobul" to my parent, promise to protect me in dunya, responsible for everything I do, to Rabb...
I always wonder, how I feel... When I close my eyes in the night before sleep, and open my eyes in the morning, there is a man beside me, my imam, that Allah wrote the name, I for him and he for me, in Lauhul Mahfudz before I born.

And now I know...
This wonderfull feeling.
Happy, nervous, worry, affraid, when he will say aqad with my wali. My hand and feet tremble continuously.
Love, proud, feel protected, peace, calm, when I look his face, in deep sleeping, beside me, after work whole day.

Thanks Rabb for choose him for me.
Thanks Rabb for this happiest moment.
Please give Your rahmah, barakah, ridho to our new life.
Please, guide us to always in your way,,
And please... keep us together,, in this life, and life after life, in Your Jannah.
Amiin.

My last Sunday with this identity.
Feel worry of everything.
Yes, everything, especially myself.
Bismillah... Hasbiyallah...

No, I don't choose you.
But He, Rabb, choose you for me.
He control my heart,  control my father, mother till all say "yes" to you.
you with your own way, with your different way than other guys...

Since I have  time.. I will try to be the best.. For my (candidate) imaam.
Lets pray till the time.

2014
What I get in this year? Many great things \^^/
I finish my master degree,,
I get my work,,
My age reached a quarter of century,,  hahaa..
And yaa.. He introduce us.. I met you..
I won't say thank to you. But to Him.
Rabbi, Allah,, bring you to me..
So many bad boy, playboy, criminals, in the world. Why He choose the best man like you for me??
Coutdown H-3 days before you "binding me up".
Bismillah everything will be fine.

Let's pray till the time.

"Semakin dekat nanti, akan semakin banyak cobaan. Ngga hanya kamu tapi dia juga. Akan banyak ujiannya. Hati - hati. Semoga dikuatkan"
An advice this evening. Bismillah, I am ready InshaAllah..
Ya, because not just me alone but we toghether.. Let's pray till the time.

You phone my mother, introduce yourself, my mother say you speak too fast and not clear... But for me it's cool...
You came to my home,  see my parent, alone,,, they say you looked so nervous… But for me you're cool...
You advice me many rule,,, sometimes.. no, manytimes I argue.. Even the last I will say "Yes" (after a long debate)… But inside... You're cool for me..
You with your blue shirt,, in our first met,, My heart fall to you, directly, at that time....

Ya you,, let's pray till the time...

Pray,,, Pray,,,
Everything will be fine inshallah..
Just do what we can do..
After ihtiar is tawakal right?
Dont worry
#with love and pray#